- Mood:
Well, actually, there is a good reason for the silence and absence on my part: A week ago this past Monday, I began having a headache while at school and, for some reason, something just kept bugging me to have the EMT/security guy take my blood pressure. It was 200/100 at the time. I went on back into the library and felt my headache get worse and my left arm became heavy. A friend, MN, made me go back to the security/EMT station and have my BP taken again. This time it was 230/140. This prompted a call to DH who took off from work and we went to the ER where it just kept going up and up. Thankfully I didn't have a stroke or a heart attack, but I was beginning to feel really weird and tired. As a matter of fact, I still do.
The concensus from the ER and my new family doctor, it was a very close call. Perhaps one more digit and I would have had a stroke AND/OR a heart attack. I am still not up to par, though. I don't have energy and my BP still isn't coming down the way it should being on high blood pressure medication as well as a "water pill" (which makes you pee like mad, people!). It got as low as 120/102 yesterday, and right before I went to bed last night it was 120/80, but mostly because I had taken my muscle relaxer, I believe.
This has prompted a very hard decision: I am going to be withdrawing from classes for about three quarters to help myself get healthy again and feel normal, more human, not a sack of wasted flesh with a slight brain attached. I was going to go and withdraw today, but felt so bad I decided it would be the best thing to just go tomorrow and make as short a trip as possible and get home. Heat and sun, two of my favorite things, are really big no-no's right now (yes, that really does suck great big hairy monkey balls). So, the sooner this gets done, the sooner I can relax more and, with luck and a lot of hard work, the BP will go down and I will still be able to have my life.
I think I have just really pushed myself too hard. I haven't had the sort of break I have needed or could use. It will be good to rest for a while, and look for a good part-time job and then start paying for classes, perhaps, one at a time instead of all at one. Things are going to have to change, I am just not certain how to change them at this point.
One of the main things I have found that has helped me relax and be calm is watching movies and knitting. Kolbar is suggesting just taking an entire week to knit and finish all of the projects that have been started. This isn't a bad idea, you know. So, for the remainder of this week I am going to just sweep the floors, maybe mop them, and knit.
The viewing schedule for today is my favorite The Mummy, and, I believe, 300. But I am really in the mood to see the first Hellboy movie. The really cool one with all of the added scenes. Sadly, I don't have it, yet, in the movie collection, but I will.
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